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So, I've managed to bag myself two hours of online time every weekday. Weekends are still the same. Most likely, I'll not be on until 4:30-5ish my time. Maybe later. x.x Giving you guys a head up.
School's been interesting. Precious started her crap with me yesterday. She made it to my Bitch List when she started claiming she was going to, I quote, "Kick my bitchy, skinny ass". Yes dear, my ass is skinny, your's is not. Your's is what started this bullshit. You couldn't keep it's rotund, horrific image out of everyone's fucking way. Therefore, my shoulder BRUSHED you. How you're going to make throwing yourself into a locker look like I did it, when I would have fallen just from trying to push you is beyond me. Ugh.
Precious to me is Julie to Staci. Shoot her. Now.
So yeah. That's all I have to say. However, this has more than two lines to it, so I'll probably get absolutely no comments. Maybe I should post another entry merely saying hi for the sake of comments.
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[02 Dec 2003|10:29pm] |
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So aside from Phantos, Sasha, and David's bitching at me, I talked to Zack for a longer amount of time, and to Ryan, and I've been...rather blunt...all night.
And! Aren is back on my good list! :o
Yeah. And Mitch is hoooooome. But...in the shower. :(
And Emily (Tannare) sent me some Zack clips that freaked me out. Sadly, Zack's silent, now.
AND JON IS NOT HOME! :(
.. I'm either overly hyper, or fscking tired.
Peace, mai friends.
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| Why no, I'm not Jewish. |
[30 Nov 2003|10:56pm] |
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Katana Trenine: *bites and latches on*
SilhouettedVixen: O_O
Katana Trenine: Blood! *bites harder*
SilhouettedVixen: X_X Ow!
Katana Trenine: *latches in harder* bllleeedd :D
SilhouettedVixen: *Bleeds.*
Katana Trenine: *bites harder* more more !
SilhouettedVixen: ...
SilhouettedVixen: *Smacks.*
Katana Trenine: *grins and bites a bit harder* FUN
Katana Trenine: look at my LJ to know why i did that :D
SilhouettedVixen: *Uses an axe. Lops her head off with it.*
Katana Trenine: :D go read.
SilhouettedVixen: I did.
Katana Trenine: ^^
SilhouettedVixen: Omfg.
SilhouettedVixen: One of those MeMe thingies?
SilhouettedVixen: I just took it.
SilhouettedVixen: "What you're most likely to utter during sex".
SilhouettedVixen: Mine said, "Why no, I'm not Jewish."
Katana Trenine: LMAOROTF
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Evil Tortoise: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Evil Tortoise: chinese ninja warrior
Evil Tortoise: with your heart sooooo cold
Evil Tortoise: sub zeroooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Evil Tortoise: (dun dun dun)
Evil Tortoise: woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Evil Tortoise: your life is a mystery
Evil Tortoise: warrior with aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa mask
Evil Tortoise: sub zeroooooooooooooooooooo OOOOOOOOOOOOOO (heyyyy)
Evil Tortoise: FREEEEEEZING PERFECTION
Evil Tortoise: FREEEEEEEZING PERFECTION
Evil Tortoise: FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEZING PERFECTION
SilhouettedVixen: o_o;
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Yeah so.
David wanted a long entry tonight, but I just...don't think it's going to happen.
I still feel like crap, however I do believet hat my grandmother's going to make me go to school tomorrow. Which will suck major monkey balls.
I've been RPing all day. First with Kaila/Trent/Kojiro. Then Dav. Then Jon. Then Kaila again. All of which included some kind of tragedy. I'm shocked that Pamina's not a basket case by now.
Oh. Then Jon had to leave. Sucker.
I've been trying to draw lately, but I have ZERO inspiration. Same with making this damn site.
Talked to Nick for awhile earlier. First time we've actually talked since...I dunno. However long ago it was that I was RPing with him constantly. I know I was still a DJ user, if that's any type of landmark.
Ugh. I just remembered that I have a project for History that I've yet to finish. Hell, even start. That really pisses me off, because I'd plans to actually do this. Unfortunately, the only time I had to get the stuff was today, and I'm sick. No one's letting me out of the house. It's due tomorrow. Crap.
Talked to Mitch for ten minutes today. Didn't get to say too much, because I could hardly breathe, didn't feel good, AND my grandparents were around. Hopefully the card got charged and Mitch has the sense to call tonight. >.> Love you, babe. Only teasing.
So yeah. What else is there to say? I feel like crap. I have school tomorrow, and won't be online until Friday. Oh, and did I mention I believe that I have tutoring tomorrow? Unless I can manage to stay home. Which I doubt.
Blah. Whatever. Peace, peoples. I have an hour left to wait for Jon to get back. Maybe.
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| "You remind me of the times when I knew who I was... |
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SilhouettedVixen: You know.
Auto response from Stragen Meldaire: Look SilhouettedVixen, you don't annoy me....... i am the away message, and despite your attempts to annoy me, it hasn't succeeded. So. Please. Wait patiently till the eprson whom I am representing arrives. And do not post further or you may actually face my wrath (but I wont be annoyed, mind).
SilhouettedVixen: If your away message was a schoolkid...
SilhouettedVixen: I'd tell him to meet me at three o'clock in the sandbox.
SilhouettedVixen: then I'd beat him up and turn him upside down and steal his lunch money.
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It is 4:15AM.
I have to (possibly) get up at 7:00.
I have to bake two batches of cookies for my mother's house for Thanksgiving as well as pack my luggage stuff. All before 2:30.
Hello. This is never going to happen.
Why have I yet to go to bed?
I'm RPing. *Shrug.*
Errrgh.
But uh, yeah. I'll be gone from 2:30 tomorrow to sometime on Saturday. I'm sure I'll be on, whenever it is. Not sure about Thursday or Friday, though. We'll see.
Damn am I run down. x.x
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cado haca n: ;o;
SilhouettedVixen: I am fucking exhausted.
SilhouettedVixen: And I have to get up at 7.
SilhouettedVixen: And pack.
SilhouettedVixen: and then bake fucking cookies for Thanksgiving at my mom's.
SilhouettedVixen: all before 2:30.
SilhouettedVixen: BAKE. FUCKING. COOKIES. MAN.
cado haca n: Make me some cookies!
cado haca n: :-(
cado haca n: HOLY
SilhouettedVixen: Fine.
cado haca n: shit
cado haca n: wait
cado haca n: fuck
cado haca n: dude
cado haca n: o_______________o
cado haca n: O_O_O_O_O
SilhouettedVixen: ?
cado haca n: I DREAMED
cado haca n: OF HAVING A COOKIE BAKING
SilhouettedVixen: LOL
cado haca n: DUDE HOLY CRAP I REMEBER THE DREAM. WE WERE LIKE IN A FRIDGE MAKIGN COOKIES TO SELL. AND HAD HUGE BAGS OF COOKIES O_O
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I'm gone whenever she gets here. I'm stashing my crap away...somewhere, so I don't lose everything entirely. Then again, I bought this computer. She fucks it up, I am going to be very angry...
Anyway, Zack..I wub you. Don't...kill anyone off without me. x.x
David, didn't mean to yell at you. I was fighting with my mom. Same with you, Heroc.
Be back when I can, folks.
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| "I was lost in the city...alone..." |
[12 Nov 2003|02:43pm] |
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Subj: (no subject)
Date: 11/12/2003 9:00:55 AM Eastern Standard Time
From: [Screened]
To: SirenicAmaryllis
Sunshine...
I now know why you were such a witch to me last night. I am not going to bitch at you, just gently remind you of what I told you about your grades. If they are on acceptable by the semester, you will be coming down here to finish school. I know you are smart enough to pass your classes. The only exception I will make is your math grade, all others must be passing grades. Step away from the game and buckle down baby girl. I know that you don't want to have to come down here, but you will leave me no other choice. So, please try to get yourself together. I love you.
Mom
Subj: Re: (no subject)
Date: 11/12/2003 2:40:11 PM Eastern Standard Time
From: SirenicAmaryllis
To: [Screened]
Let's put it this way...
The 'attitude' I supposedly gave you last night? It didn't exist. You started off with your typical 'Waaah, why haven't you been talking to me?' crud when I answer you EVERYTIME I recieve an IM from you. Else, I don't GET the IMs, and you ask me why I 'haven't been talking to you' EVERY TIME WE SPEAK. Online, anyway. You make it out to seem like I don't give a damn about keeping contact with you or something, and you KNOW that is not the case. Not. At. All.
Secondly, you had NO right to take the fight to grandma. Asking -her- why I was supposedly mad at -you-? Why didn't you just ask the person who was supposedly giving you the attitude, eh? Why go to her EVERYTIME you and I have a disagreement. She is NOT me. She does NOT know my motives for the things I say, nor is she in my head. STOP going to her, and for once, actually talk to ME about it. I wouldn't GET mad at you if actually came to me first for once.
As for me comming down there to finish school if my grades are not 'acceptable' by your standards when the semester is done? Forget that. You ripped me out of one place I enjoyed being and dropped me into some crappy place I hated once already. I am FINALLY settling in here after almost THREE YEARS. You are NOT going to pull me out of here AGAIN. I'd run the hell away before I'd allow myself to be taken from here.
My grades are not low because of 'the game'. Is that the only excuse you people can come up with? 'The game', 'the internet'? Why don't you try 'she doesn't care' sometime? Or, 'she's not paying attention because said subject bores the hell out of her'? Try something that's actually a reason for once.
Yeah, I already know the counter you're going to have for this. 'You're fifteen, I'm the mom, blah blah blah.'. Save it, if that's all you're going to say. I've heard it, I get that, whatever. I'm really not up to hearing about it -again-.
So yeah, if you want to talk like -people- instead of using the internet to avoid actually having to deal with responses to what you have to say, you know the number.
-Bri
Yeah, if I don't show up online or I can't be reached at home, I either lost the 'net for this, or I got sent to NC to live. Who the fuck am I kidding. I can't change anything.
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[09 Nov 2003|08:06pm] |
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Well, I hope Zack's outburst of "I hate you because you don't like my suggestion, go to hell" made him feel better.
Yep, that's right. More stupid, STUPID fights with Zack. This time because I did not want to delete a shitload of ACTIVE tags. I'd already deleted 100+. Why delete the active ones when I'd only have to IMMEDIATELY re-add them?
Yeah. I did wipe all but...what? Mine, Kai's, David's, Jon's, Zach Kline's, and Tavin's (Elowyn's). Simply because David is on all the time, as is Jon. Zach's freaking important, Tavin RPs as the prince, and Kai and I were both on. Yep, I wiped Zack's tags. He can 'come get it' like he suggested if he wants it so freaking bad. Added Kat's, too. She's gonna RP as Amaryllis. ^^;
But whatever. Ugh.
Hope you're happy, Zack. As for me 'going to hell'? I've been there. It's a hell of a lot nicer than you've been the past few hours.
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This entry = Dedicated to Jon, because...I hardly talked to him today.
So yeah. <333333333333333333 for Jon.
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[07 Nov 2003|03:45pm] |
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Haha! Seems I've missed a lot today.
Well, I'll have a juicy update when I get back. 6PM EST, folks.
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| "I close my eyes...thought I was lost but I was stranded..." |
[06 Nov 2003|07:07pm] |
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You know, I had this long post planned out, and lo and behold, someone helped prove my point.
Read this after the entry if you want. It's not all that entertaining. Just the same BS.;
( Read more... )
I'm coming to find that I'm caring less and liking people a lot less. Not all people, but people that I once held in high regard. Whether I'm talking to them on Graal, through AIM, MSN, e-mail, forums, real life...whatever. A lot of them are seeming to mean a lot less to me as of late, and I have a feeling that that works both ways. People I didn't care about; Hated, despised, thought were plain annoying... I find myself relating to them now. Accepting them, embracing them.
To some of you, Zack...Jon...David...you guys, in short, and others, have nothing to worry about. I love you guys to death. Always will. I have a connection with you, an unbreakable bond. If I have that with you, you know it. You feel it. Just like I do.
But others... What can I say? Hate me for it, if you must. I don't care. I'm sick of the stupid things some people do.
Sadly, this will seem very aimed at only two people because of recent events, but I assure you it's not just them, and hey, they make a good example, I guess. I'm sick of people coming to me and asking me for advice, or coming to me to 'talk' and asking for my opinion, and when I give it, they get pissed. Do people need a warning label on their friends these days? "Caution: Subject to tell you what you don't want to hear"? If you don't want to hear it, DON'T ask me. If you aren't going to want me around in the long run, don't drag me into it from the beginning. It's useless to ask me for something/to do something/to say something if you're only going to be angry in the end.
I mean, give me a break. If you're going to ask me for advice on something, you obviously know me. You know how I act, you know my attitude, so you should know what you're in for. If you don't, who are you and why are you talking to me?
I felt really good today. Brittany came to me about a matter which I will not share, simply because she asked me not to. But it was suprising. Brittany and I've known each other a little over a year now. We're friends, but we've never been all that close. But she came to me anyway, and the better part? She knew off the bat how I might respond. she said it herself, "I don't know what to do. I need help, and I will not get angry at what you have to say". the one person she had to go to backed out on her. I don't back out on people. Not until I'm forced out, or they ask. Or, heh, I get the lovely "Fuck you" and get blocked. Ah yes, the simple ways to get rid of problems. Sweet, isn't it?
You know, as cruel, or as 'bitchy' as it may seem, I don't care about the responses I get to this entry. I really don't. Negative ones, that is. They're my thoughts, and it's my journal. It's like I told Chris. If you don't want to hear it, ignore me? Don't read this? Whatever.
I have my close friends. To you guys, I thank. I don't know what I'd do without you.
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Yeah, so nothing interesting's happened save for the Chris/Shelly drama and some dude nothing believing the Mitch/college. Funny. Yeah. Haha.
My apologies to everyone who checks this journal. I haven't updated.
My apologies also to my Lerhynians for my absence last night. I was just NOT in the mood for the internet, it seems. But, I'll make it up to you tonight. 6PM EST-11:30PM EST, I'll be on, for...whatever you need. As of right now, it's 3PM. I'll be on 'til 4. So yeah.
I wub you all. Sorry for the shortness of this entry. <3
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| "It seems so easy now... |
[04 Nov 2003|02:41pm] |
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Aeromus. How fucking gay. I half wanna ask Staci if that was who I thought it was, but at the same time, I'd rather just pretend I didn't see it.
Yes, I went on the MHX's public 'comlink'. Why? I don't even remember why I went. I got to caught up in reading some of the bullcrap that half of them spew that I totally forgot the purpose of being there. Zeromus, talking about his 'relationships' being part of his life. That was interesting...funny...hilarious...whatever you want to call it. Pissed me off because anyone with two eyes and half a brain can see that he's full of crap on that matter.
That and pretending to care for his 'Hunterz'. I really wanna know which ones he hasn't tried to decieve, and use, and fill their minds full of so much horseshit that they see their world in red and black. Lastly, I want to know which ones of them are, or were, stronger than that.
I already know a few of them. Zuzuku, Tsunami, Staci.. Especially Staci. God, despite how much shit she and I start with each other (or, I start with her. Whatever), she never ceases to amaze me. She pulled herself out of those depths with force. I sort of got...kicked...out of them. x.o; Still though.
I can already see some of the comments I'm going to get. "Why did you go read them?", "You should just block out everything Hunter-related/Mav-related/black and red", etc. Do me a favor. Just DON'T comment if that's what you're going to say. Don't comment at ALL. I don't want to hear it, because I know I shouldn't have been there, and I know that 'you' "don't like me being around that". Just shut up. I make my own decisions, damnnit. I know what I did.
Argh.
End rant, folks. \m/
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Yeah. That was irrelevant.
"Chris has a trust issue. He says all these people are telling him I'm flirting around with Mark and I'm not. If he's not going to trust me then maybe I just shouldn't be with him."
Well, for lack of a better word, duh! You kissed Mark, while with Chris, and hey! Chris is no better! The guy still tries to hang all over me. Wtf did you expect?
Ugh. I love Shelly to death, honestly, but I could strangle her sometimes. Really.
School was boring today. Read through like, not even 1/3 of the third act of 'The Tragedy of Julius Caser' in English. It's sad. I finished the damn thing ahead of the class on like Monday of last week, and the rest of the class is all waaaay behind. Slow. e.e
In math, nada. Got lectured by the teacher, and regretted showing Matt a few letters in ASL. He kept fingerspelling cuss words to me. /).o
Let's see. Art? Nothing. History? Messed around with Thomas. Kept writing notes back and forth to kill boredom.
At lunch, Joey actually decided to talk to me again. For about five minutes. At the end he's like, "I'll talk to you soon.". Right. 'Soon'. Soon to him is like once a month. Damn ho. >:o Nah. Not ho. Pothead. >.< Lunch was also when the Shelly/Chris thing happened. The whole thing was pathetic, and to save you from listeningt o further incessant whining, I won't get into it. Unless you ask me to. :D
Gym was typical. Steph/Me/Amanda. Being weird. And random. And...violent. :D
Science, Jeff couldn't stop telling me about the err...'fun'...he had with some Junior named Kelly on Friday. Jeff's a freshman, and he's...very good at telling tall tales. Somehow I highly doubt his story, but either way. That is not a mental image I wanted of Jeff. >..o Then again...I have...forever and a day...to do this stuff. >.> Since they're all usually on later than me. I have NO SCHOOL TOMORROW.
So yeah. There's my update for now. Expect more soon.
Be back around 6. <3
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Public journal's up. :D
I'll have a err, better entry later on. Gotta fix some random crapola first.
Anywho. Feel free to comment. Ya know I love comments. <3
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